Monday, July 25, 2005

What On Earth Am I Here For?

Like I stated in my blog entry yesterday, I started reading the book The Purpose Driven Life & that is where I got today's blog title from, What On Earth Am I Here For? Boy, I wish I knew the answer to that question! And hopefully I will find out the answer by reading this book. I know I'm here to be a mother & while I even question my ability to do that somedays, I do try my hardest. It's not easy raising a teenage daughter these days. Heck, just look at this picture & it'll prove it! LOL Cassie HATES having her picture taken (hence the hand in front of her face). Sometimes I feel like I'm even being tested to see how much I can handle. Don't get me wrong.....Cassie is a good kid, but at the same time, she's going through some rough times right now & she's probably asking herself the same question.....what on earth am I here for? Her dream is to form her own rock band & I truly hope that she goes after her dream & never gives up! Even though I posted a picture of Cassie a couple of days ago, I decided to post one again today since she is another person that I love :)

Someone posted on 2 Peas today about how they felt unimportant & that post really got me thinking about how I feel the same way quite often. Sometimes I feel like I don't even exist when I post something on a message board. But you know what....I do exist! I am important! I'm important to my husband, I'm important to my kids, I'm important to God! I honestly believe that this book is going to do me a lot of good :)

Cassie & Emma wanted to go to the mall again today to DDR again, so I took them there this afternoon & then Jim met me there when he got off work. While the kids were DDRing, Jim & I just strolled around the mall, talking & holding hands, just enjoying each other's company. Then when we got home, it was already 8:30, so we just decided to order pizza for dinner. After we ate, Jim helped me put the prize fund for our bowling league together. When we were finished, we just looked at each other & smiled & then snuck in a kiss :) Both of us have come to realize that although we don't get a lot of time to spend together with the hours Jim is working right now, we really do cherish the time we do have together & try to make the best of it, no matter what it is that we're doing. Tonight was proof of that!

Until I blog again,
A life devoted to things is a dead life, a stump; a God-shaped life is a flourishing tree. Proverbs 11:28

1 comment:

Jennifer Stewart said...

You'll love that book, Benita. It's life-changing! :)