Saturday, August 29, 2009

5 Years

5 years ago today, August 29, 2004, was the absolute worst day of my life! A day that I wish I could forget ever happened! A day of sadness, lots & LOTS of tears, lots of pain, lots of questions. It's so hard to believe that it's been 5 years! When I think about how my life has changed over the past 5 years, I know that I've become more aware of things, more careful, more alert to my surroundings & more scared.
Not a single day goes by that I don't think about Karen & Jimmy.....not one! And I'll admit, it's been very hard for me to go on, living my life, knowing that they aren't with us any longer. They say that grieving gets easier as time passes.....I think they're wrong! It's been 5 years ago & still feels like just yesterday! I miss them! And always will!

As you're reading this, I'm in Pennsylvania visiting my family & the grave. I'm staying at Barb's house since most of the hotels were booked for Little League World Series & the ones there weren't, were over $200 a night! I'll be posting lots of pics when I return.

Benita

6 comments:

Denise said...

((HUGS)) to you and all of your family, Bonita.

I feel we been friends for years, through 2P's and now through our blogs.

I don't know what to say, except stay strong and I'm here if you need me!

XXDenise

Janet said...

{hugs} to you, Benita. Hope you have some special time with family this weekend.

Linda said...

Sending out hugs to you. And I'm glad the your sister is doing well too.

Ryzmomplus2 said...

I don't know what happened, but I know how devastating loss can be. Thinking of you and sending big hugs!

Evelyn said...

((HHUUGGSS))) I agree with you about the grieving. My sister will be gone 3 years in Novemebr and I am sitting here crying as I write this to you just thinking about her. I don't think the grieving gets easier, I think that we get used to the pain. All this time i have told myself that there has to be a reason, there has to be some way to make sense out of her passing, but I've yet to find it. All we can do is remember them and try to carry on, even though it's not easy. Hoestly, if i could lay down and die, I would, but then the rest of my family would have to go through what i go through with my sister, so i keep going. Hang in there...

Lida said...

Sending you a big hug and you are right, it doesn´t get any easier it still sucks big time. Glad you had time to go home and be with your family.